AM I THAT BAD?

I’ve been thinking…

What if everything that’s happened to me,

every hurt, every loss, every wrong turn 

is my fault?

It’s easier to blame the world,

to say life is unfair.

But sometimes, in the quiet,

I wonder if I’m just reaping

the mistakes I’ve been planting for years.

What if I made the wrong choices,

and now I’m just living in their shadow?

What if all of this pain isn’t bad luck,

but a consequence I never saw coming?

And the worst part?

I’ll never know for sure.

I know I’m not a saint,

not the kind of soul people call “good.”

But am I truly that bad?

Bad enough to deserve all of this?